The last time I saw you I was 12
Gone are the years now who can tell?
25 years since you have gone, 
Looking back, memories are found.

Sweet moments of fun & laughter you shared
you gave us the best and taught how to care.
Lessons I’ve learned are valuable and true
“Do to others what you would have them do to you”

So thank you for being a father to me
your presence is missed and sometimes my heart grieves
But when I look above I know someone sees
A heavenly Father who bestows His love and infinite mercy

21st April 1995, a night that turned our lives upside down. The news of our father’s demise and how we were never gonna see him again. I don’t remember crying that night, but as years went by I realize how the absence of a person can change everything. But all glory to the Lord above who kept me & my family under His constant care and unfailing love.

It’s a lock-down to track down…

21+ days is a long time to stay in quarantine. Everybody is exchanging ideas about what one can do to pass the time away. I’ve heard some people say “Now is the time to make the most of Netflix and Amazon Prime”. Some scroll their thumbs on devices that surely gives them something to do but takes one nowhere. While others have rested enough to recover from their fatigue.

A city like Mumbai can really keep you on the run and at the end of the day you actually have no time for anything but to get some sleep and start the same old routine. But right now things look so different. Even as I was look at the chaos and panic the virus has caused the world, there is a good reason for this lock-down, it’s time to track-down. What do I mean by this? Well, it’s time to ascertain our walk and relationship with the Lord. It’s time we track down what have we really missed ?

Psalm 139:23-24

Search me, God, and know my heart;
    test me and know my anxious thoughts.
See if there is any offensive way in me,
    and lead me in the way everlasting.

In the Psalms, we see the heart of the psalmist and what is his main priority in life. I wonder what must have led David to write these verses, where was he? What was the situation that made David literally ask God to explore his heart?

When we are faced with a situation as grave as COVID-19 have we asked God to search our hearts? I believe this is our moment to bring who we really are in front of our maker. It’s time we give ourselves more to Him than the things of this world. It’s time we track down our first love- Jesus. It’s time  to track down the supernatural path. It’s time to track down how to be chasers of His extravagant heart. Brothers and sisters- it’s time for a real track-down of our spiritual lives.

Many distractions will creep in, but are we ready to put aside our desires and come in His presence? Are we ready to say to Him, Search me, O God, and look into my heart, test my thoughts and feelings! See if I am in danger of becoming unfaithful to you, and if so, get me back on the path you have shown us forever! 

Thank you Lord for 2019!

Psalm 9:1

Declaring the end from the beginning, And from ancient times things that are not yet done, Saying, ‘My counsel shall stand, And I will do all My pleasure,’ Isaiah 46:10 (NKJV)

2019, a year that has give each one either something to learn or something to let go…..A journey of bitter with the sweet. Some days of losing sleep. Some months where things looked bleak. Places and moments where one had to walk out of the door. Some people who welcomed you with the little they had and made you feel at home. Let’s take a look for all that God has done for each one of us as we bid 2019 goodbye.

As for me, I have always taken a walk to look back for his mercies that are never ending. Those days when I thought I wouldn’t make it. But God in his mercy only took me by surprise letting me know” in John 5:16 ” I chose you to go and bear fruit” Genesis 9:6  Letting me know that I am not a mistake I was made in his image. Jeremiah 29:11 “‘For I Know The Plans I Have For You‘ Declares the Lord, ‘Plans to Prosper You and Not to Harm YouPlans to Give You Hope and a Future. ‘”

So on that thought and promise of God, I encourage you to make a note (If you wish) for all that God has carried you through and blessed you in 2019. Let’s have a heart of gratitude towards our maker who makes all things possible and keeps a watchful eye over us.

I want to also take this opportunity to thank my readers and for being supportive with my blog. Bless you all. You will hear soon from me in 2020.

In whom do you place your TRUST?

When we don’t understand why certain occurrences happen, we are quick to reason things our own way. We get restless, , visit the past , play the blame game, look at the impossibilities and we deteriorate.   But if we change our focus, we are called to depend on God rather than our own understanding.

Proverbs 3:5-6  reads, Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding;in all your ways submit to him,and he will make your paths straight.

Let’s take the first line in this verse “Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding.” 

What is TRUST? Trust is an ability of someone or something. Here the ‘someone’ is the Lord in whom we are to TRUST. In an agonizing world, we are to trust Him with all our heart. But, we fail in our human frailty. When someone betrays or offends us,  we feel mad and mutter words like “Can I TRUST anyone?” In times of vulnerability and chaos, are we swift to turn to the word of God which says TRUST in the Lord with all your heart? 

In the natural state of mind we mull  over things and start to depend on our own understanding and miss the bigger picture that the Lord is over everything. Envisage this, if you and I could just Trust the Lord in every situation what a life we would be living. It would be less worry and more worship, less strife and more smiles, less ego and more enthusiasm, less fear and more faith.

In all our ways we are to submit to Him and He will make our paths straight. Think about this for a moment- our every action, our every word, our every decision leading us to what God has planned because of one simple step of placing our trust in Him. Now that would be walking in obedience even when it doesn’t make sense. Today, challenge your heart to Trust the Lord with the next move and see how he makes your part straight. To trust the Lord in the light is nothing, but to trust Him in the dark, that’s FAITH. 

The Very Breath Of God Is In You!

How often do we take our breath for granted? We don’t  realise the essence of breathing till we run out of it, right? But this breath that we have in our lungs is not even ours. Now you may or may not agree on this, but that is the truth. In Genesis 2:7  reads Then the LORD God formed man of dust from the ground, and breathed into his nostrils the breath of life; and man became a living being.

When we breathe in, we breathe God. And when we breathe out , we pour out praise. God is so personal that He gave his very breath for us to have life. When we lose our focus with God we start to lose our breath in Him. We start to live on artificial ventilators like our jobs, car, or movie, to fantasy football, Xbox Live, a magazine or even our time spent on social media. The worldly pleasures slowly becomes our pattern of breathing and later leads to a sedated life. Which makes room for  depression, anxiety, fear and even suicidal thoughts. We need to realise that we are not fighting in the flesh but in the spirit. Job 32:8 reads, “But it is a spirit in man, And the breath of the Almighty gives them understanding. 

We are called to live in Him, depend on Him and stand for Him. In moments of overwhelming uncertainties and confusions, JUST BREATH because the very breath of God is in you and me. In case you are gasping for breath and haven’t heard from God then let’s ask this question: 

When was the last time I was still enough to hear the breath of GOD?

The God of more than enough!

Have you been in a place where you felt that it’s never enough? This world that we are living in is never enough. Our passion is not aligned with what we do hence our current job is never enough. Our life style is incomplete because we feel our bank account is never enough. When we run from pillar to post making ends meet,time for our loved ones is never enough. A child who is struggling with grades, feels he or she is not good enough. Overall this life is never enough. 

In the bible we read the story of Sarah, who could not conceive was not enough for Abraham. But God gives Abraham a promise that they will have a child. Did Abraham and Sarah believe that God would be enough in this area of having a baby? Well probably to some extent they did but looking at their natural state being in their late eighties they felt they had to make a way on their own. Therefore Abraham listens to his wife and sleeps with the maidservant. But that was not the promised child through Hagar. God had a sure promise for Abraham and Sarah but they didn’t wait on God and tried to help themselves and God in the situation.

Do we sometimes try and help ourselves and God  when He has a promise for our lives? Do we make amendments and alterations thinking that it is the will of God? 

Just as God promised Abraham that he will be known as the ”father of many nations” God has amazing promises for us. In all our needs we need to know that He is more than enough.  2 Corinthians 9:8 And God is able to bless you abundantly, so that in all things at all times, having all that you need, you will abound in every good work.

If you are in a season of waiting , may I encourage you with this? 

A delay is not a denial. When you think God is saying no, He may be just saying “Not yet”. He has only the best in mind for his children. God knows when to send you exactly what you need. Blessing , advancement, spiritual , emotional and financial growth are coming. It’s time to get excited again. It’s time  to remember that you are not in this alone. You have an incredible ending in store. God’s promises are all yes and amen. And when the time is right, I the Lord will make it happen” Isaiah 60:22. 

Trust in the not knowing and the in between.

Being faithful to our maker is priceless. 

When God says to place our trust in him, He is very serious about it. 

What does that mean? Like-

Trust in the pain, ( which seems so painful?)

Trust in the delay, (when there is no ray of hope?)

Trust in crisis ( when there is nothing left?) 

Trust in the not knowing and the in between?

Are we able to trust Him with our circumstances? Or are we consumed by our own thoughts than the one who knows the very hairs on our head and the one whose thoughts are countless towards us like the sand on the seashore? God calls us to look to him. He never stops thinking about you and me…And they are not thoughts of condemnation and judgement, but thoughts of absolute love and adoration. 

When we read the word it clearly explains how deeply He loves us. God’s own Word, the Bible, shows what immense care God has for His whole creation, and especially for each one of us individually. He cares for us, has a plan for us, will not forsake us, and wants us to spend eternity with Him! Having this relationship of trust with God is rewarding. When you lean on him and not your own understanding He brings forth the plans He has for us.

Some will think it’s easier said than done. But I assure you, placing your trust in Him is gratifying.

God is love and He loves you, because love keeps no record of wrongs 1 Corinthians 13:5. God loves us in a moment than anyone would in a lifetime.It’s breathtaking to experience a love so pure. Imagine if His love is so deep for us, what stops you and me from trusting Him? He made us, He formed us in our mother’s womb and called us by name, isn’t that beautiful. Can you imagine someone calling you,singing over you and loving you before they even saw you? Can you think of anyone caring for you like God does? I can’t and no one can comprehend a love like this in today’s world. But know that God gave his only begotten son so that we may live.John 3:16.

He loves us despite the fact we fail Him everyday. We were born with His DNA so lets live his legacy and  not create something we are not. Let’s get connected with our maker, He is the author and finisher of our faith.Hebrews 12:2 

Stand Firm!

To stand firm is to stand against the odds. Some of you will agree, that when we make a decision to stand firm, things are never comfortable. Especially when you have decided to be a soldier of God. Get ready for war, be ready to embrace days of abandonment and nights of discord. You will have thoughts that will make you question yourself, is this even worth it? But if you have decided to take a stand for Jesus don’t doubt it even for a moment. To be a warrior for God one must put on the armor, as written in  Ephesians 6:13 NIV Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand.

I recall the night I took a stand for the Lord, I just knew that I had to stand firm for what God was calling me to do. It’s like when you love someone you don’t hide the relationship if you are serious about it right? I was in love with the maker of my soul because he has been in love with me before creation. Before I was born He knew me and set me apart.  He gave his all to gain me.

So I went ahead and confronted my people but they did not understand our love. 

I wasn’t forced to follow Christ, I decided. 

I don’t worship to hear my voice, I worship because he deserves it. 

I don’t read his word  because it’s a story, I read it because it’s true. 

I love God, and I won’t deny it to anyone, for any reason. 

Sometimes we have to experience things we don’t understand just so God can bring us to a place where he needs us to be. Never doubt the season he has for you. God often uses our deepest pain as a launching pad for our greatest calling. So let us hold fast the confession of our hope without wavering, for He who promised is faithful;- Hebrews 10:23

I’ll Just Go With You

I will go before you and will level the mountains; I will break down gates of bronze and cut through bars of iron. Isaiah 45:2

Lord I feel a stirring in my heart

Tell me what to do?

I don’t know where to make a start

I’ll just go with you.

You started something good in me

something which is true

It makes me laugh it makes me cry

What do I mean to you?

Then I read in your word

And this is what you said

How beautiful you are, my darling!

Oh, how beautiful!

Your thoughts toward me are countless

This I have come to know

Your love has taken over me

Compassion that fills my soul.

So here I am my precious Lord

Do what you have to do

For I don’t know where to make a start

I’ll just go with you.

Waiting Isn’t Punishment. It’s Preparation.

Waiting is not a punishment, it’s preparation to receive God’s best

Waiting is not a destination, it’s a journey that only makes us stronger.

For what does one wait? 

From the WORD to the world all had to wait.

When God created the earth Adam waited for Eve

Joseph waited 13 years

Abraham waited 25 years

Moses waited 40 years

The WORD that dwelt among us (JESUS) had to wait for 30 years to start his ministry 

David waited to become king after being anointed by Samuel.

The father waited for his prodigal son who frittered away 

Noah waited for the rainbow after the flood

So if you are in waiting then you are in good company.

Probably you have waited too long for something in your life. 

Maybe you’ve been waiting for healing or a loved one to be saved. A single mother waiting for her monetary. An orphan waiting to be adopted in a family. So many waiting……

Waiting is a process where things get better when we wait on God. God always waits for us to return to him. He has a time and a place for all of us. Waiting is never wasted. God has placed you where you’re at this very moment for a reason and a season. Nothing happens by accident. There are no accidents with God. God is directing each of your steps. Let go of your problems and let God handle. Let go of your hurt and wait on God for healing. Let go of your fears for he sustains you. It’s better to wait a while and have things fall in place than to rush and have things fall apart.

So trust God and his timing! Don’t underestimate what God is doing in your season of waiting. While you wait- worship him, praise him, honor him with your life. Walk-in his statutes and listen to his voice while you wait. Waiting is a promise for greater things in him. So wait on him for all things are made beautiful in His time.